As I sit on my bike in my gym (my basement for now) my mind starts thinking. I start thinking about where I was this time the past few years. I realize I had been on a roller coaster for at least the last 4 years and I remember I was always hoping for more time. I wanted time to slow down, to give me more days to stay home and relax with my fur babies instead of leaving them every few weeks. I wanted more one on one time with my husband Mark. I wanted more time to accomplish my goals. As I am riding my bike I look around. The neighbors dog, Jasper, is running around his yard happy as can be. I smile because I know he is old and to see him like that is awesome! I then see my two babies, Scuderia and Bimmer sleeping next to me and my husband sending me pictures of his walk with the baby, Bentley. 

Then, it hits me! My wish had been granted!! I finally have time....

Covid-19, Corona Virus, Social Distancing, Masks, PPE.....these words will be forever tattooed in our minds. We will never forget, this is the reason why not just me but you have time right now. 

Now we can take this time we have and dwell on it, protest in the streets for our governor to open us up OR we could look at life's perspective in a different way. I want to share my perspective and maybe help you see yours in a positive way.

In the last month I knew I could not just let day after day go by without feeling a sense of purpose. So, I do what I do best, help others. I collected food for senior living facilities, I make Easter baskets and shopped for friends and family that needed it. I made cookies, I hosted a virtual birthday party, I even joined my HOA Corona Virus Block Coordinator position. Yes these are all good things to do in time of need, (and I don't regret any of it), but I was being selfish. Not to others, but to me. You are probably saying "really Jamie?" Yes really! 

You see, I have always been the first person to volunteer my time and efforts to making a difference where ever I could. I probably always will. It's in my DNA. I learned though in this time that I have to take time for me. Everyone needs time to reflect on themselves. When is the last time you did? It is ok to take time to do what you want for you! It can be sleeping in, taking a hot bath with your favorite glass of wine or whatever everyone else likes to drink. lol, wash that hair girl, do your makeup, read a book..do whatever your sweet heart desires. Don't let a worldwide epidemic make you realize you need to take time for you. always do it. You get one life, live it to the fullest! 

I believe the roller coaster I was on the last few years has me thinking this way today. I am so very blessed to not be sick with the virus, but make no mistake that I have had my fair share of health problems. My roller coaster consisted of Thyroid Cancer (18 months of treatment and healing), learning how to deal with all of life's daily struggles during that time and trying to figure out who I was. The ups and downs made me turn to myself and really appreciate the cancer for making me see how strong I really am. I finally recovered and then needed back surgery. Again, I was tested physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually. This path was meant for me, but it showed me once again my strength and my purpose.

Don't loose sight of your dreams, passions, purpose and living life. We all have it within us to make everyday count. With the time you have, do something with it. Find joy in every day. 

As we continue to go through our states lockdown and try to accept life as it is for now, try to find gratitude in your struggles. Its because of this your true strength will show. Better days are coming. 

To all my pageant sisters, stay strong, stay home and be happy!

Love,

Jamie Klenin-Mrs Lone Tree 2020